Ana's BACK

Wow, it took me ages to log it to this, I freaked out because I thought I lost my account :/
Sorry I haven't posted in aaages, but I've been away on holiday until yesterday, was my first day back at school.
Holiday was so good, tried to get a long walk in everytime I could, only fasted for 2 days in the whole holidays though :/
Was 57kgs when I left to Australia, and now am 60kgs. And to be honest, I'm really impressed. Like, with the amount of alocohol I consumed especially, and Easter chocolate, I'm really lucky that I didn't gain more.

And, was meant to fast again today, but couldn't do it. Was first day back at school, felt sick, and just couldn't do it.
But tomorrow, ana is back, and back for good.
115calories tomorrow (1 pomegranate and lychee juice before school, and 45calorie soup before netball training)
and gunnah do anything to get out of having dinner, talk about how tired I am or some shit, and then no eating until Wednesday night, where I will have a little dinner.
I can not wait. I know I say that before every fast, but I truley cannot wait.
Just 10 more kg's until happiness, just 10 more kgs till perfection.
Cantwait.
But from all the shit I've been eating lately, its pretty obvious I've plateued (spelling? Sorry)
But Im willing to put in all of the work that I have to, to do this.
Infact, I am going vegetarian as of next week.
Told my parents I'm doing it for a month, as a way to see if I can do it.
But its more then that, its to avoid all of the fats in meat, and crap like that, but yeah.
truth is, I've been trying to give myself food poisoning lately, even Praying for it :/ just an attempt to hurt myself really. Eating raw chicken, hoping to throw up, hoping it will make me sick. Ceuse I really hate throwing up, i can't purge, makes me so depressed. Well, even more so.
But, i think going vego for a while will do me the world of good. :D
so, lots to look forward to in the next couple of weeks, if I work really hard, that is. Which, I can do. Just need to stay on track.

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