Well I can safety say that that was the most awkward night of my life.

Hahahahahahhahahaha I want to cry of awkwardness.

Cockblocked by a police, it was definitely a night of firsts for me. Including losing my virginity. I got what I wanted from him, he got what he thought he wanted from me, and now its all done and dusted. Over for good. I feel awkward and embarrassed but whats over is over and shit like that.

I'm fighting the urge to not eat right now. I want to get out of the house but I have nowhere to go.
My best friend is mad because I got back with my ex (albeit briefly)
I'm not going to text/facebook my ex after the awkwardness that was last night.
Everyone is working.

I need to get out of the house omg. The sadness of having no life.