Haha, whoops.

That last post was a bit of a fail wasn't it..? Guess thats what you get when you try to post photos off of your ipod. ^__^

Well, today went pretty much to plan. Did my water fast, 24hr, and was going to have soup for dinner. But, you know how I told you how concerned my parents (mum especially) is about my lack of eating? Yeah, well she wouldn't let me have just soup.
She was trying to get me to have soup AND salad AND veges AND pasta. Now, I love you Mum, but HELL NO.
So, i managed to get away with her making me a salad, and eating three pieces of brocolli. And I manaaged to take off most of the cheese she put on my salad, and had only a drop of salad dressing, and then faking full, saying how much I'd had to eat today.
I HATE lieing to my parents, and sometimes, I just wish that they'd understand. Understand that I do not want to kill myself, I just want to be thin. That when I eat, I am so unhappy and depressed, and I feel so free and alive when I'm starving, when my stomachs empty. I feel pure, happy and relieved of my gluttony sins.

OHOH, i also got a part time job baby sitting these kids in my street, and I will feel so guilty about eating there, that I most likely won't, so its a good way to stay active and not eat :)

Woke up without a loss this morning, bit of a gain really. Hard to tell when your scales aren't electronic. But, that was to be expected after my binge yesterday, so I wasn't too suprised, and turned that sadness into passion to work harder today :)

And so, here I am. I was having a bit of ann internal battle before, trying not to reach for a couple of buiscets or a small cheesecake for reward. Then, I bargined saying if I didn't have that, then I could have a tea. But, I managed to talk myself out of both of them, which I am pretty fucking stooked about really :D

So, the plan for tomorrow is my 54calroie coffee in the morning, then put dishes and stuff around the house to look as though I have eaten, and then either have soup and toast (soup;41 calories, toast.?) or vegetarian sausages and frozen vegetables (sausages are slightly higher in calories, but would be better at putting on the act of eating, before gearing up for my (awkward) 38hour fast.
Gosh, I need a name for it. 38hr fast just sounds so retarded.
Hm, will think about that one. My water fast was a 'Fast for the Lord and Me' signifing that I was fasting for Him, to show my apologies for my sins and binging so much last week, and for me to realise how strong that I can be.
So, I need a good name for this one; but, I'll find one.
Off to go play some computer games or SOMETHING before bed, to stop me consuming any moer calories. Hmm, might even get some study done. HAHAH Thats a novel concept.

For now, goodbyyye <3
Will talk tomorowoowowowo (yo) Right, this hungers got to me (LOVES IT) :L Kbye now