I feel that, right now, the only time I want to eat is when I'm stoned. Well, the only time where I want something cheesy/fatty/doughy, is when I'm stoned off my nut.
Like last night, for instance, I got baked with a friend, came home and craved cheese on toast with bacon (after eating only noodles and vegetables earlier that day).
Stoned me thought that this was a fantastic idea, so into the oven it went. I then went outside to have a cigarette, came inside, (considerably more sober by this point) and didn't want my food anymore. Not wanting to waste it, I forced my way through one piece of toast.
And then this morning, I was sober, and my brother made noodles. Knowing that they would cost me a mere 300 calories, and be so fulling I wouldn't want to eat anything else, I decided that I wanted some noodles. Nothing else, just chicken noodles. However, my brother used the last packet for himself, so I had nothing.
And here I am, hours later, still sober, having had only one black coffee and two coke zeros. Interesting.
Knowing this, I'm kind of concerned because I'm getting high with my best friend tonight, and I don't know if a) she'll make me eat, or b) stoned me will eat out of my own wasted will.
I guess that knowing this will help in fighting it..
Until then, I'm on zero calories so far today, and loving it.
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