Oh boy..

The awkward moment when your starving stomach rumbles in front of your recovering best friend..
And, as a punishment for this, she made me eat more than I thought she would.
We got high and brought popcorn and lolly pops, and went to hers and smoked more weed, ate kettle corn, lolly pops, marshmallows, a biscuit and a muesli bar. Fuck.

The only reason that I ate all of that was because I know she heard my stomach rumbling and that I knew she wouldn't believe my attempted recovery if I didn't eat. I had 50 liquid calories before then, and no solid food up until then, so I'm feeling okay. I was even down 1.5kg today.

I don't know what's happening tonight..meant to be drinking but I am not feeling into that tonight. But with the people I'm with, I know that they won't be okay with me not drinking. It's at a Christmas carnival and so there is going to be large amounts of food and what not. Aaaaaaaand my best friend will be there, so I don't know how I'll get out of that. I don't want to eat anything before tonight, but if I need to, I have some 100 calorie cajun vegetables lined up.

Then a barbeque tomorrow, where I'm planning on going stoned and eating as little as possible. I don't care who notices there, none of them really care that much. I wanted to be thin to make them talk, but since I'm not, I'll just be another fat girl trying to diet.

Day 1 of my 17 day plan went exactly as I thought it would, which makes me happy c: