Been back into the fasting-binging mentality, but trying to curb that now.
On Sunday I'm going to an old friends for dinner. The second to last time that they saw me I was at my thinnest, and the entire topic of conversation was me, my eating and my weight. Then the last time, I was bigger, but I was vegan, so that probably added some fuel to the fire.
I want to be 60kg by Sunday when I see them - which could be hard this weekend. I've already fasted for over one day, and hopefully will go until at least Thursday - making it three days.

There's a big local Christmas celebration on Saturday night, which I will probably be going to, and will potentially be made to eat - but I'm going to get out of it if possible. Also buying pot on Saturday, which scares me and excited me at the same time. I'm just scared that I'll get the munchies and eat. Ugh.

I'm around 65kg right now, and had 178 calories so far today (up & go) and will allow myself 45-54 more calories tonight. I desperately need to be as thin as possible by Sunday. But I haven't been under 61.9kg in the last six months, so it won't be easy. But I'm going to do all that I can. Ugh. I hate this. I just want to be thin. Thinner than thin.