This is day 19, second to last day of the fast, and i was planning to 3day fast it, to finish under 60kgs tomorrow.
so, i didn't eat yesterday, was planning not to eat today, or tomorrow until 7:30pm.
My mum left to go see my poppa today. Last thing she said before she left? Make sure you eat.
:/
Was going to have some friends over tonight and have drinks, but wasn't keen for all the calories that drinking brings. And now, my friend is talking about bringing over all this food. I was planing to tell everyone to eat before they came, but shes fucking on to that.
I have to choices, I either eat, and drink tonight, and just deal with the calories that I consume, and not reach my goal by tomorrow, or i can lie and say that they can't come over, not eat and spend the night alone, but loose weight by not eating or consuming many calories.
I hate this disease, it makes me so antifucking social sometimes, cause im so paranoid about not loosing any weight. Fuck.. i hate this.
And i think that i'm going to have to lie about this, and say that i had to go away for the weekend. Fuck this disease. Screwitscrewitscrewit. This makes me so alone and anti social.
Well, i have to get off of my ass and go do something. Blog later with my decision of what to dooo :/ xoxoox
No comments:
Post a Comment