New thinspiration!
In exactly 20 days time, I shall be on a history trip for school, where we are going swimming at this random place.
Swimming, means bikini ;)
Also, my ex 'I' will be there, and always enjoy the chance to make him jealous, lets just say, hes a bit of a dick :P
So, in order to make him jealous, I am going to need to be so thin. My aim is to be under 65kgs by this time next week, and then i should be on track to be 62kg when we leave for the trip.
Its a four day trip, which involves swimming and hiking, so that means we get loooads of excersize too, which is great.
I need to do this on, if not before, time. I need to be under 65kgs before i go on that trip. If i go on the trip looking like i do now, everyone will run away and take cover from the beast :/
Ana will never betray me like food does. Ana is what pushes me to strive to be beautiful, therefore making me happy.
Please Lord, please help me do this, please.
Make me hunger for more of you, not food.
"Man does not live by bread alone" - Luke 4:4
I need to be less, to make you more.
I need to be less to be happy.
I don't want to die, that would defeat the purpose. I just want to be thin.
I don't need to eat. Ugly people eat. fat people eat.
Somehow, I need to do this also, without my parents catching on. That would only be disastorus.
So, this is how it's gunna go.
No solid foods all day. Until dinner, which I have to eat 4 nights a week to keep suspicions away.
Breakfast- either: up & go- 191calorie drink
or: vanilla latte- 80calories
Then, only water all day at school, and then if needed, a watered down v8 juice- 47calorie per serve, but probably less if i water it down.
Then, if I cant get out of it, dinner. But no dessert, ever ever ever.
I don't care if this means that I can't go out for the next two weekend. It will be worth it to be thinner. Everythings worth it to be thinner.
"Become like the lamb, by fighting the lion. Nothing else matters."
I need to be thin.
Bring it oon xoxoxox
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